Sedihnyaa...I'm so sad..It's now almost 5am in the morning and my eyes seems like not to close yet..I'm thinking of myself..what gonna to happen to me tomorrow and the days after..I'm scared to meet mr tomorrow to come..i'm worried of what he would bring with to me...I'm sad for being so bad throughout this year
2009 is gonna get to the end and 2010 is coming..I pray to God and wish to have the better year and years ahead to come..I had been so bad through out this year..I just don't know why I could feel this way..Sedih jadi org tak berduit...useless of myself as i can't contribute anything to my family. ~nangis~
People, do imagine that I had quit from getting more or less 3K drawn every month..I don't mind as there will be my dream is waiting ahead but now I have no words to tell what is goin' to happen if it is not for real..Ya Allah..please show me the way and give me the strength to go through all these feeling..
I can't shop of my interest (i don't mind of this), I can't contribute for family expenses and I can't give pocket money to my mom was the most frustrated. And I can't do anything with 1.3K allowance given..it's totally not enuff even to support myself in campus..but thank God for providing people around me whom are so kind to help..Paling sedih bila terpaksa pinjam dari sisters.. ~nangis lagi~ My sisters, I believe you guys is reading my blog silently, I really appreciate of what you guys had sacrificed to help me..
And things that happened last night was when I went to QB Mall, I had came across with some stuff that I wish I could get it but the size I'm looking for was no longer available..again I don't mind but what had made me to feel so bad was when I can't afford for another additional amount of money which hundreds is wayyy more than it..beribu apatah lagi laaa..and again I had missed the thing that i really wish for years I could get it..
Here I could see why the people tends to give up with their life when everything they wish they could get but yet they can't just because they don't have money..I can't afford to be a 'hamba duit' yg kerja siang malam as I love my family so much, I can't afford to leave my boys just because of it but I also can't afford when I have no money to comfort myself and though my family..
Boboy, please apologize mummy okey..I am not purposely doing this to you and neither our family but bear we still have papa..He had sacrificed a lot for us..Maybe not this time from mummy but I'll make sure to make your future to be better than what I had went through insyaAllah but please promise me that you will be a good servant of Allah when you grow up and strive the better life for us yeah..I love you and papa so much as no words can describe it my dear..
~therefore dear, mummy tak boleh tido sepanjang malam nii...sorry for not hugging you this whole night~ MAMA..I am proud of you but too bad I am not as strong enough as you.. :-( i am kinda give up of myself for being so bad all this year...Please GOD i hope for the better days and years ahead to come to be with the person that i love soooooo much..Aminnn...
Makasih En. Ayam Jantan for reminding me that it's now already SUBUH..nak pi semayang sat then nak tido..good night..erppsss...good morning...papaiii.... ~ i wish i could fall asleep later :-( ~
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